Today was an especially hard day. I should have just gone right back to bed when I started it off by pouring liquid egg whites into my coffee instead of cream... but I kept on and took the kids to swimming lessons, lunch and a play date. The kids destroyed my house from top to bottom at least twice and I burnt dinner right before my DH walked through the door. It really was a lovely day! I had been looking forward to an evening out with some women I hadn't seen in almost six months. I knew that if I was able to survive the day and get the kids to bed that I'd be out the door shortly after six o'clock and on my way to some wine & good conversation. At the last minute my DH decided that he wanted to go on a motorcycle ride with some buddies since tonight was the first rain- free night in well over a week. Naturally I said fine and that I'd pop by to see the girl's with the kids for 15 minutes before bedtime... totally giving up my "ME" time that I had been looking forward to for several days.
So, you can probably guess exactly how the evening went at a baby/child free get together with my two children...ya... well... exactly. It sucked. I spent the entire time chasing DD around and scolding my son every five minutes. I quickly gulped down my glass of wine, packed the kids up in the car and headed straight out of there like a rocket ship. I know first hand what it's like to leave your kids at home and get out for the evening; the last thing you want is to listen to another kid whine and scream! I'm okay with the fact that they probably didn't want us there but I broke into tears on the way home. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I got home and put the kids straight to bed and decided to burn off some of my steam by cutting the grass, pulling weeds and vacuuming the entire house top to bottom. YES, that was the "ME" time that I got today... I cleaned my house!
I don't blame my husband for what happened this evening because he's at work all day and comes home to deal with the kids who are tired and cranky from a long day. He deserves his outing as well, it just so happened that he planned his "ME" time at the same time that I had planned mine.
I've come across a new approach to friendship and childcare - affordable childcare. It's not coming to my city (yet!) but it's launching in 26 cities across Ontario this summer. I'm excited to see and hear what people think of this idea because it's something that is so simple yet so needed. I have a few friend's who do this already - This is a fabulous way to not only make new friends and network but to find somebody to help out when you really need that "ME" time.
I didn't get my "ME" time today in the way that I had hoped & planned.... but my lawn looks great ,my house is clean & my husband is happy. I guess I'm half way there!

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